Today was my husband's first day back to work so it was my first day on my own. First thing on the agenda is get the kids off to school. Joey is almost 13 so the biggest part with him is making sure he is up on time. Now Audrey being on the verge of 4, in just a couple of weeks, which reminds me... I have a birthday party I really need to start planning. Geeze . Anyways Audrey takes after her dad and does not want to get up for anything( why I put her in the am preschool class, I won't make that mistake next year.) get her and her younger sister up and dressed and out the door to be at school at 9. We did it minus a book bag, which is still missing somewhere in this house.
Audrey goes to school from 9 to 11. So I think I'll head to Walmart, we have no food in the house and I seriously haven't cooked a damn thing in the past week. I can do a grocery shop in under 2 hours no problem and I got an awesome parking spot, so here I go with a 2 year old to stock my shelves. I hate Walmart. I get the I wants, I needs and then I'm still adjusting to going out into the public with all the stares. I'm not ashamed of my scar, and it doesn't make me feel bad if someone looks at me over it, and I would even tell my story if someone asked me how I got it. I totally get it looks like my head about fell off. Lol it is what it is and I'm not going to hide my scar. I by no means consider myself "disfigured".
I spoke to someone today who is going down the same journey I am. Although she does not definitively know if she has cancer yet but she had a complete thyroidectomy 2 days ago, a week after mine due to the high likelihood of it being cancer, and she told me that I was an inspiration to her and that made me realize this is my calling. Cancer is my calling. I didn't ask for this, but God gave me this path and I'm going to do something positive with it! I'm not exactly sure what yet, but it will be great I promise. I've been given another chance at life. I have a disease that kills so many but in my case, I can be cured. I DO NOT take that for granted.
Even though it was cold out today the sun did shine, and it was beautiful and it felt wonderful. Every time I get to feel the sunshine on my skin I feel blessed. Goodnight
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